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big bitchy beans
Jan. 13th, 2019 05:25 pmToday I called my kidneys "big bitchy beans" and I can't stop laughing.
I guess I'll just leave this here:
Credit: awwmemes.com
I guess I'll just leave this here:
Credit: awwmemes.com
My Amazon wish list is pretty boring this year. I honestly just need (really, really, really need) a dishwasher. My chronic pain level makes me want to die sometimes, and I admit, far more often lately than usual. I'm trying to find any way that I can to make my life a little easier. I'm setting up a Jet.com account soon to start ordering basic needs from them (toilet paper, etc). Since flu season is upon us, I'll have to start staying home more often, which means preparing meals daily. I've started ordering from Schwan's Home Service again, so I have food in the freezer on days I am able to eat solid food. I have soup broths in the pantry and protein drinks in the fridge for days when I'm stuck on liquids.
Ironically, I'm in charge of most of Thanksgiving luncheon this year. Turkey, gravy, mashed potatoes, green beans, and homemade bread are my responsibility. My sister in law is making dressing and buying desserts and drinks. I've recruited my stepfather to come over that morning to transport the turkey for me since I am unlikely to be able to carry it myself. Hopefully everything will turn out fine, and maybe I'll be able to eat.
I've lost 23 pounds this year due to digestive paralysis, but never fear, I'm still as plump as the turkey currently residing in my freezer. I have another 20 pounds to go before weight becomes a noticeable issue, and I'm optimistic that I'll never truly become underweight. Frozen coffee is making sure of that.
As for the death spirals, I reached out to a few friends to let them know how I was feeling. We had dinner and talked. It was nice, and I appreciate that they listened and sympathized. I am a tremendous introvert, but I'm learning to recognize when it's time to interact. Finding the right people in which to do that is usually the main issue, other than my physical limitations (I'm not always able to sit up and drive, for example). I hate living rural, and I feel like I would have more options for making friends if I was at least in the nearest city. It's complicated, but I'm trying to figure this out.
I'll try to start therapy early next year. It really depends solely on my available funds. Existing on minimal social security disability is very challenging. I recommend avoiding it as long as reasonably possible. I didn't have a choice. It was life or death for me.
I'm closing in on the NaNoWriMo finish line, and will reach the goal by Thanksgiving as long as I don't stop writing. Talk to you soon. xo
Ironically, I'm in charge of most of Thanksgiving luncheon this year. Turkey, gravy, mashed potatoes, green beans, and homemade bread are my responsibility. My sister in law is making dressing and buying desserts and drinks. I've recruited my stepfather to come over that morning to transport the turkey for me since I am unlikely to be able to carry it myself. Hopefully everything will turn out fine, and maybe I'll be able to eat.
I've lost 23 pounds this year due to digestive paralysis, but never fear, I'm still as plump as the turkey currently residing in my freezer. I have another 20 pounds to go before weight becomes a noticeable issue, and I'm optimistic that I'll never truly become underweight. Frozen coffee is making sure of that.
As for the death spirals, I reached out to a few friends to let them know how I was feeling. We had dinner and talked. It was nice, and I appreciate that they listened and sympathized. I am a tremendous introvert, but I'm learning to recognize when it's time to interact. Finding the right people in which to do that is usually the main issue, other than my physical limitations (I'm not always able to sit up and drive, for example). I hate living rural, and I feel like I would have more options for making friends if I was at least in the nearest city. It's complicated, but I'm trying to figure this out.
I'll try to start therapy early next year. It really depends solely on my available funds. Existing on minimal social security disability is very challenging. I recommend avoiding it as long as reasonably possible. I didn't have a choice. It was life or death for me.
I'm closing in on the NaNoWriMo finish line, and will reach the goal by Thanksgiving as long as I don't stop writing. Talk to you soon. xo
